Letter to my Future Wife

I thought on this day it would be fitting to share my love letter to my future wife…

I found myself thinking about you today. Wondering where you are, what you’re thinking and doing. It hurts a little not to be with you, but I can live with that for now, knowing that we’ll spend the rest of our lives together. I’m writing this letter to help you understand what I’ve been thinking about and why. I probably don’t know all the right things to say, but my feelings and words are from the heart.

I know it sounds crazy, but I picture you…  your smile, the way you pull your hair behind your ear, your wonderful laugh, even when my jokes aren’t funny. I can’t help but wonder what our children will look like.

I’ve gone out with other girls, but something always seems to be missing. I go out and have fun but the idea of you and our future together is always in my thoughts. It keeps me focused and on track, aware of who I am and what’s important.

I’m in the midst of peace and serenity and all I can think about is you. Life is perfect, beauty all around—but I still want you. I want to spend this perfect moment with you. The wind kisses my skin and I wish it were you. I breathe in the night air—pure and sweet—and I dream of your naturally exotic scent; a scent that only I can smell. A scent that is released when you are around the one you love. A scent that was made for me that perfectly complements my scent and together makes a perfect blend of the sweetest berries mixed with the richest vanilla and a touch of the purest chocolate. A scent that’s sweet enough to eat; which is all we want to do. We can’t keep our hands off each other—or should I say our tongues off each other.

In this most serene moment, I’m thinking about you because I know you are thinking about me. It’s in the solitude that God allows our souls to touch. In that purest moment, the feeling that you are thinking of me in that exact moment is visceral.

I stare into the night sky seeking your face. Praying God will give me a glimpse of you, somehow he will outline your beautiful face in the constellations.  With the twinkle of every star, I picture you winking at me.  As if there is a secret that only you and I know—this ultimate secret that allows us to be in each other’s presence without uncovering each other’s identity.

I love you whom I’ve never met. I’m in love with who I know you will be. I hear the waves crashing on the shore and I listen for your voice. I listen for you to tell me you love me too. I faintly hear you tell me you’ve always loved me, you always will love me and for me to never doubt your love for me. With each wave, your love for me is confirmed. I whisper under my breath, “I love you too!”

Its exciting, Thrilling, And scary. We have not even begun our love story, yet ,and i think about you on a daily basis. I wonder what we will fight about, and what our home will be like. I wonder about the look on your face when  I walk down and said will you marry me ?   I wonder if we will fight to save our marriage if things get rocky …..  Or if we will forget the reason we fell in love in the first place.

I don't know when I will meet you, if I already have, but I know that I've waited for you and you've waited for me, and without a lot of romantic over-sentimitality forced upon that, I trust that one day, crossing a street against the light in the rain or through Facebook or Twitter, we're going to find each other and, at some point, we'll know.