Letter from my #1 Fan

Today my #1 fan wrote this letter to me.

“Today is a really happy day for me. The past year was a challenge, and I'm so happy to have my spirit back. I felt in chains at times. Sometimes in life, things do not go like we want it to be... And sometimes we need those betrayals and rejections to bitch slap us until we fall to the deepest darkest moment of our life... But then again they're all meant to be something to strengthen us so we could become a better and better person. :') “

It took a near complete emotional breakdown to see this letter.

Dear kkash,

Odd as it may sound, I have thought about what sort of legacy I’ll leave behind for you. I guess it’s not so odd. Perhaps I think it’s odd because I’m at the stage in my life where I’m not sure what my legacy will be. I don’t seem to have accomplished much so far, so I wonder if I’ll accomplish anything. Anything worthwhile, that is.

At the same time, I know exactly what I will leave behind: my words. But will you read it? Will you remember that I put them there? I don’t know. But it thinks that may not be the point. Words matter, but they are not the only or best thing. I do not know what else I will leave to posterity, but I can leave this.

There is certain loveliness to heartbreak. It is no beauty we would desire, but it serves as a reminder of what we are capable of. That we can love. That we can give love. That we can be hurt, yes, but that hurt means we are not dead or cold inside. To love is to risk. And to get our hearts broken means we had hearts to begin with.  Remember, they do not break forever. They will not be the same, but “many things are strong in the broken places.”

And there are reasons to get up in the morning. It may not seem that way, when all you have is a blank ceiling, and your bed, though empty, seems far more inviting than the rest of the world. But there are things to see and do and be. This may seem like poetry, elegant nonsense, but these words you ever read try to tell you a simple truth: there are things the thing I want to tell you but somehow….. I can’t.

Magnificent fragrances

Ah! What a beautiful day,

Wake up, did love to cuddle with you,

My day starts with the thoughts of yours,

Want to see your sweet dimple on your sweet face,

When you are around I feel lucky, feel crazy…

That beautiful moment might be a criterion for dying.

When my heart long to see you,

You just appeared infront of me,

Sometimes I feel like my heart stop beating “Dhak Dhak”

Sometimes it beat faster, when I see you.

The smell of you perfume,

Come hold of me to near you,

And lock in your arms.

The scent of my yours catch within my inner soul,

The magnificent fragrance of yours is like a magic of spell

For me to fall in love with you each time more.

You make my world with your magical smile,

You make me crazier each day.

Dreaming hours about you, lost in your memories.

I will stay with you however far you are…

Flowed to me from your sweet eyes,

I drew my every breath.

I will miss your tender kiss on my forehead,

Whenever I close my eyes and I feel you within myself.

How I wish I could stay little longer with you,

My just one wish is to be with you, always & forever.

Ending with love…

Love you Kkash….

I can only hope that my letters will put smile on your face, bring hope to the brokenhearted, and encourage the lonely. Please let me know if you have any questions for me, or if you wish for me to elaborate on anything in particular. Thank you for reading this and for being a part of one of the most amazing movements I’ve ever seen or been a part of you.