Dear Friends,
Thank you all for your wonderful and
encouraging comments on blog. I also appreciate those who raised concerns about
revealing too much, washing my dirty linen in public and castigating lovers.
Some are concerned I would miss out on my future wife… Lol. Don’t worry, she
who is mine and when I find her, you’ll be the first to know.
First of all, I must say I never ever think before I
write any post. Maybe If I did, I wouldn't put all my emotions and would
try to sugarcoat or embellish it to suit some particular set of people. This is
one of the many traits I got from my past experiences...
I write on the spur of the moment, I’m an impulsive writer. I
type directly on my blog and upload before I even have time
to correct spelling errors and all. Whatever you read here is a raw,
uncut version of my thoughts at a particular moment the reason isn't
far-fetched. I'm an emotional guy. I think with my heart not my head and this
has sometimes been a source of discomfort to me. Maybe if I took time to think,
write, edit and all, I would be a better writer or a bad writer (who knows)
that’s why it’s difficult to write for others because when it’s mechanical,
nothing comes out...I'm brain dead.
I have written about everything from my
first love, having an ex, being used as a rebound by a woman I loved. I don't
leave out even the most embarrassing of details. Why? Because deep down in my
heart, I know some lady or guy out there is going to learn from my experiences.
Yeah, the original purpose of setting up this blog was to pen down my real life
experiences, not write about others.
I actually got a few disheartening emails & read some
interesting comments because of story. Surprisingly some came from the people
who felt I was trying to instill unnecessary fear in-them, some called me a
whore this or that… Lol.
Gladly, I'm not one to be moved or affected by trivial threats or
comic insults from the likes of some people. News Flash... I know
who you are... I'll give you a much deserved introduction on this blog
soon...hugs...
I leave such comments to show people that if
celebs can be criticized and I let the comments fly, why should I set double
standards by deleting negative comments about me?
Yes! I am like every other guy out
there. I make my own mistakes and I'm not invincible. I know what it means
to be in need of something and have it offered to you on a platter of gold...But I
know where to draw the line and I don't have to prove it to anyone... That
story was as real as it gets and my intentions were as pure as it gets.
And while I am in no way discouraging people
from taking that leap of fate, following your intuition, I just say implore
caution and try to find out more about that person. Yes, we have killers,
everywhere. Some of us are dating potential killers and don't know it yet, but
it doesn't hurt to reduce your risk level to the barest minimum. The
devil you know is still better than the angel you don't right? I’m just
saying we should be careful, most importantly, follow your intuition...Listen
to that little voice of reasoning.
I did not say she was wrong. I said my intuition told me something
was wrong."She said it "IM SCARED OF YOU" and you having a weak
heart, you could be a good man; you could just have had a change of heart and
didn't think it wise to help me or see me again. Whatever the reason was, its
inconsequential, that was 1 years ago.
Why I decided to write that story last night,
I don't know. But I know everything happens for a reason. I
know my story has saved some people. A lady had a change of heart about
seeing someone who would have probably harmed her .God inspired me to write it.
So, If I've caused anyone discomfort by it,
it wasn't my intention...but one thing is sure, my thoughts do run wild, so
does my pen...I'm totally uncensored..Hell yeah...I didn't even think before
writing this...
Story Begins….
Who knows where and when the consequences
takes place in life, it was about 6 months ago. A very extraordinary
personality took place in my heart.
It was 5th
Dec’12, I made a call to her (as a stranger) but it was not with a wrong
intention. I had never seen her face before either. I was just looking for the
candidates for my company. So she received my call. I don’t know what happened,
her first conversation with me took my everything towards her. I just gave her
a date for an interview. After few days of the first conversation she called me
again … suddenly I heard a sweet smile with the word “Sorry!” Second time the
smile of her made me loosing myself from I’m….
She explained all the reason of not coming
for an interview but there was something else going on in my mind. I said her, “It’s
ok!” Even though I didn’t have any reason to know about her personal life. But suddenly
She question me…
“Sir! Are you from Punjab?”
This question made me strong to tell about my
personal life and ask about her as well. On that day we even exchange our
facebook Id.
And then she hung up the phone. After that
conversation we start texting and chatting over the phone and facebook. We use
to talk with each other as we know each other from so long.
I’m not an ordinary guy. I’ve learnt how to
present myself infront of different different personalities. Very first
conversation on the facebook, I was thinking as if I can flirt with her but the
most interesting thing is I saw her being truer every time I use to chat with
her.
One day she called me and asks me to meet
her. The night before the day we met was one of the funniest night for me. And the
funniest thing was…. I was thinking how I’m going to start my conversation when
I’ll meet her, what I’m going to offer her at that restaurant? Should I propose
her or?
Totally confessed and out of my mind….
8th
Dec’12, Time: 8:00pm
I reached at her given address.
I met her in a restaurant
“Zaika”. So we talked and talked. When she smiles I just can’t help it but to
smile also. After an hour, we went to a garden where no one was around, with
an ice cream in our hands. She kept on smiling, and so did I. She’s so sweet
like an angel I use to see in my dreams. A li'l laugh, silly smiles, an awkward
silence. I stared at her for couple of seconds. Then she said to me, “Please!
Don’t look in such a way… I feel Ashamed”.
After some time, the moment came when I shook
her hand and hugged her. It seemed I was losing something. My eyes were numb. I
wanted to say to her something, BUT? At last, we said goodbye to each other.
2 days ago was like the best night of my
life.
2 days ago I met this girl who made my heart
turn into pieces and now I'm thinking I’ll never see her anymore.
A girl who made me fall in love just in
couple of days.
Why, why, WHY? Why can't I stop thinking
about her? I only saw her once. I don’t know what’s wrong with me... I have
never really felt like this before with a stranger... But ever since that day,
that moment, you're beautiful visage is the only thing floating up there in my
mind.
Maybe this is just infatuation? I'm just
going crazy?
I don't know, and...
I DON'T CARE…!!
I want to see her again.
I want to know more about her.
Does she even know what I feel about her?
I want to know what she really thinks about
me? Because, at that moment, she was all that filled my senses.
If I could have one chance, just ONE CHANCE,
I would give anything and express my inside feelings to her.
If miracles are true, PLEASE let one happen
now! PLEASE!
Story doesn't end here......
To be continued……
waiting wat happened next
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